it's been a while

Its been a while since i have written down anything and i think it's time for me to start writing again. its the only thing that can keep me sane really. coz the things going on in my life at the moment. i'm pretty sure i can go crazy any time soon!!

Lat's Place at Puteri Harbour, Johor

On saturday, 16th March we all celebrated my dearest brother's birthday at Lat's Place. As usual, we called their hotline to check on the available time for their show/lunch or dinner and for the price.

When they said they only had one showtime which is at 6.15pm, we thought, 'ok, maybe it's bcoz the place is still new' but after hearing the price per head, we were like 'OMG!!'. It's RM120 per person.. We're not being cheap or anything, we were just shocked.. So anyways, we decided to go coz it's a one time thing anyways..

We went to Lat's Place and we made a booking and to our surprise, they actually have 2 showtimes one at 1:15pm and one at 6:15pm, of course we already planned for the 6:15 show so we took that time. The other surprise was the price.. Due to the school holiday in March for Singapore and Malaysia, they have a promotion of RM88 per person instead but that's not the only thing, it's a buy 1 free 1 deal.. So it comes to rm44 per person!!! Isn't that great??!! BTW, The offer is until end of March.

Anyways, that night we went there and we were greeted warmly by their staff and host.. She was warm n cheerful.. Which made us feel welcomed.. Anyways, when the show started, we went in by group, ours was Mango.. I think they group us by birthday celebration or by families with babies not sure which.. When entering, they will take a group photo.. It's a little souvenir to take home coz inside, we weren't allowed to take any photos..

I'm not gonna say anymore coz i think this post is long enough.. All i can say is, it's a worthwhile experience and the food and hospitality were great!!!

I'm happy, I'm back!!~~!!

I have been gone for quite a while now.. But i'm back again..

Now is the time for me to start writing out my journey..

a broken heart is a heart broken

I was watching glee last night (yep, i'm a gleek) and i was so mesmerized by the song Rachel sang at the prom. normally i wouldnt notice the songs lyrics much, but when i heard this song, my heart felt attracted to it and decided to google it up and i found the lyrics and then i youtubed it.

As i listen to the song, i feel even more attracted to the song. It's such a meaningful song and somehow it just matches my feelings. This past year, i have had my heart broken and my dreams crushed over and over again by the same person. Leaving me behind by just pushing me aside one day, and until today i know that he still is looking for a chance that i might just come back to him. 

And so, i decided to post it up here. Should he look for me or should he stumble across this, i hope he understands what it means. 

xx PS: if you're reading this, i hope u understand that what you did really broke my heart. Even if you feel that you need to make amends, i just hope you dont come to me. i know it may make me sound as if i am strong. but the truth is, you know very well that if you do come back, i'll be the one running towards you because what we had was so special that it can't compare to anything else that i have. All that i ask from you now is to cherish what you have/had because as much as i want to come back, i just cant go thru the fear of you leaving me behind again. xx

I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore?
You lost the love
I loved the most

And I learned to live, half-alive
And now you want me one more time

Who do you think you are?
Runnin' round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

And I learned to live, half-alive
And now you want me one more time

Who do you think you are?
Runnin round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

Dear, it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

Who do you think you are?
Runnin' round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

And who do you think you are?
Runnin round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?

When Life Gives You Lemons

I've always heard or maybe seen a quote that says; "When Life Gives You Lemons, You Make Lemonades". I know it's meant to give some sort of encouragement. However, what if the person receiving those lemons are allergic to it? Do you still go and make lemonades with it?


I've only started thinking about it ever since lemons been pouring in my life lately. I know i'm not allergic to them, but when you think about it carefully, with all those lemons, even I would end up being allergic to them. Anyways, moving on from the lemons. My life currently has been one big battle.


As my life spirals down this long and winding tunnel, I think finally I am seeing the so called light at the end of this hectic battle. Eventhough I feel like life is about to change, I still have doubt deep in my heart because i know that lemons just don't disappear from your life until you've actually dealt with if not all but most of it. Afterall, I have finally decided that instead of making leamonades with all those lemons, I can also make lemon meringue and maybe some cheese cake. XD

All I can say is that; 'when life gives you lemons, you utilize every single one of them until you really feel satisfied with the outcome'. Afterall, it's your own life and no matter how hard you try to just go with the flow, you really have to deal with all the poblems because if you never try, you'll never find a solution.

i am a little drowsy~~

today, i feel very very whoozyy...
i think it's the meds kickin into action as we speak...
that's one pretty strong cough syrup..
i really feel like the doc has given me some kind of drug~~

i think i'm just gonna shut my eyes for a mminute~~
just a while~~

ZzZzZzzzZzzzzZ

what is going on in my head? *scream*

Lately, my world has been spinning out of balance. I feel as if the world is literally upside down on it's sphere. Why, u ask? Well, to put it simply. My life is out of balance. Last year, i was just getting over a really bad relationship. Now this year, I am planning my future plans with a certain someone.
I don't know what happened exactly, but it's happening. Some people may say that it's a bit too soon. Some people just think it's the right timing. But, what do i think?
Truth be told, i am not even sure what's going to happen. It's not that i'm not ready. It's more to the fact that am i able to do it or not. I look at myself everyday and i think. One minute i feel like i can do just about anything, then the next minute comes along and i feel like, 'oh shit! if i can't get this done how can i be someone's wife?'
i guess i just have to figure out what's best. After all, it's my own future. I have to think it through myself.

It's a fresh new start

i know i haven't been online for a while... and there is a good reason for that.. i have been having some tough times during this past few weeks months.

and now that i can stand on my own two tiny size 5 feet.. i'm gonna have to go thru some few things to get started.. coz this is definitely my 'FRESH NEW START'

Oopps!! i'm sorry i banged your car -.-

I am so frustrated!! in all my 7 years of driving, i have never ever had an accident involving other cars... seriously!! NEVER!! but up until last Sunday, my luck changed... i banged a car... -.- it was not the light kind of bang like a kiss on the cheeks. It was a head on hard collision...

What the hell was running through my head that time, we will never know since i also don't quite understand it myself. All i remember is the loud *crash* i heard and all that i remember before that was just a bright light and there goes my beautiful record/reputation out the window... *sigh*

Anyways, some of you must be thinking what happened to the car i made the impact on?? well, here comes the funny part, the driver is actually my boyfriend... -.- so i bet you're really laughing your head off rite now... i mean out of all the people i would actually crash into, it had to be my own boyfriends car... *big sigh* I guess your probably thinking i did it on purpose.. but i swear, i didn't... we didn't have a fight or anything like that at all... i just happened to press the gas at the wrong time... -.-

So now, the big deal is what am i gonna do about it?? well, i guess it's time to do some major damage to my pocket for the car's body kit instead.. XD

LoanSharks decorated my Car??? =O

OK, i know what you're all thinking. Especially those of you who probably has heard or even saw it before~~ *sigh*

I have not borrowed money from the loansharks n i will NEVER do so!! but, according to my very own reporter back at home, apparently my car has indeed been spray painted and decorated with $$ signs~~ yellow in colour to be exact~~ (from the news, it's always red but apparently my car was red enough and they decided yellow would suit it better **double sign**)

Anyways, moving on..... I still am very confused as to why my car got involved in this incident, i mean hello people, do a check before you go n spray paint someone's car!! the car is mine and not whoever the person is your targeting's car!! I know i already bought a different car but when things like this happen i just feel the urge to run back home and just take the car to live with me in the city. (OK, i am very attached to this car even though it's age is very old for a car XD)

Now, i am still panicking about what might happen to my car next, my mom has already done the police report, but seeing how 'good' n 'effective' the police here are, i'm just not gonna put any high hopes anytime soon.. =(

i just hope they find the culprit or i myself will just go back there n find who's work it was...